my uncertainty

everywhere that is not around you
is not worth being

everyone who is not you
is not worth being

but being with you
is a dream and a heart-ache

it is knowing
i love you
but it is also knowing
the uncertainty

the uncertainty of having
the uncertainty of loving

but not being with you
is longing and loneliness

it is knowing
i want to be with you
but it is also knowing
why i should not be with you

the uncertainty of having
the uncertainty of loving

this is but my dilemma
this is but my dream
this is but my doom

this is for no one's concern
this is for no one's hurt
this is for no one
no one but me