Back of my mind

In the back of my mind was always a picture of you leaving me for someone else. And although I kept denying it, the image was just getting clearer and clearer

I’d understand I guess that I just wasn’t good enough. You’ve always hinted in jokes and anecdotes that I never was. And I guess you’re right

I just hoped I could be good enough eventually and that you’d love me imperfections and all. But also I guess maybe it was never meant to be

I was only good enough for the lonely nights you needed company and the hot days you needed somebody to share with

But as you moved on and moved up, you wanted more—the more that I couldn’t give

And so the picture of you leaving me which used to be in the back of my mind… is now a reality in front of me