maybe

maybe if i closed my eyes tight enough
i could see beyond the darkness

maybe if i pinched myself hard enough
i would wake up from this nightmare

maybe if i drowned myself in work
i'd forget i had to live a life

maybe if i stopped seeing my friends
i'd stop wishing for a life like theirs

maybe if i pretended to be happy
i'd fool myself into believing i could be

maybe if i stopped writing
i'd stop thinking about all this nonsense

but maybe this isn't nonsense