when is someday?

Nickelback - "Someday"

How the hell'd we wind up like this
And why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase

Lately there's been too much of this
But don't think it's too late
Nothing's wrong
Just as long as
you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it alright but not right now

I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
That we could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
Just as long as
you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

problem with empathy

i can empathize.
alright i'm a hard-hearted bitch who doesn't give a shit about the world.

but i guess it's true what philosophers say about people's personalities - that they are 2 sides of a coin. just like no one could appreciate good without bad and beauty without ugliness, or riches without poverty and finally blessings if not for adversity.

and so under this premise i have my claim to empathy. because i wouldn't know the hard-hearted bitch that i am had i not empathized.

anyway, enough about me. it's just so difficult sitting beside someone who is feeling down or angry or mad or sad or depressed - anything sorely negative and not be able to do anything about it. the person's feelings just grows into a being all its own and sits beside you too. there is just this expanse fencing the person in but at the same time there is a ripple of sadness that moves outward.

is this empathy i feel? or do i feel responsible? or am i guilty? or is it because i feel powerless to help?

it is said that the discomfort of distress pushes people to be helpful. this is supposed to be one of the primary theories backing the concept of altruism, supporting the stand that there is indeed no true altruist - only people who want to help themselves feel better.

so i really am just a hard-hearted bitch who wants to feel better.

sick vs. drunk

i've been sick for the past few days and it feels like dying would be a better option. but as i experienced the ordeal, i happened to realize certain parallels of physical sensation between being sick and being drunk.

• for one, at a certain temperature (that's relatively high) fingers, toes, and lips grow numb and cold - just like when i'm drunk
• i lose my sense of balance
• difficulty in hearing
• difficulty in tasting
• i become forgetful
• i start to mouth off or i become irritable (i'm not sure if that's supposed to follow though)
• losing consciousness

i don't know. maybe these aren't generalizable qualities, and are just true to me. for sure though, i'd rather be drunk than sick. at least when i'm drunk, i'm light-headed and semi-happy or something like that

excellent acoustic version

The Dolphin's Cry Lyrics

The way you're bathed in light
reminds me of that night
god laid me down into your rose garden of trust
and I was swept away
with nothin' left to say
some helpless fool
yeah I was lost in a swoon of peace
you're all I need to find
so when the time is right
come to me sweetly, come to me
come to me

love will lead us, alright
love will lead us, she will lead us
can you hear the dolphin's cry?
see the road rise up to meet us
it's in the air we breathe tonight
love will lead us, she will lead us

oh yeah, we meet again
it's like we never left
time in between was just a dream
did we leave this place?
this crazy fog surrounds me
you wrap your legs around me
all I can do to try and breathe
let me breathe so that I
so we can go together!

love will lead us, alright
love will lead us, she will lead us
can you hear the dolphin's cry?
see the road rise up to meet us
it's in the air we breathe tonight
love will lead us, she will lead us

life is like a shooting star
it don't matter who you are
if you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time
we are lost 'til we are found
this phoenix rises up from the ground
and all these wars are over

Story of a girl

Absolutely (Story of a girl)
Artist: Nine days

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears
And I can be so insincere
Making the promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearin' the holes in the soles of her shoes
How many days disappear?
You look in the mirror, so how do you choose?

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put up with this sh** day after day
How did we wind up this way?
Watchin' our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waitin'
Wearin' the clothes of the souls that we choose
How do we get there today?
When we're walkin' too far for the price of our shoes

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

And your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl
Whose pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her
When she smiles